Just an update on how I’m doing.
Well firstly my sister and dog arrived in England last week. Which has been really nice, hadn’t seen them for over 2 months. My dog will be staying in England permanently with me and my mum, but my sister will be going back to Dubai at the end of August to do her A levels there. My dad will also be staying in Dubai.
We are moving house in under two weeks. Back to my old house in the village I use to live in before I moved to Dubai. This is going to be weird because well I haven’t lived there in nearly 5 years. And also the fact that all my old friends will be there (well most of them are at uni now but will be there for holidays.) I’m not friends with these people anymore, we lost contact shortly after I moved and then in the summers I went back most of them weren’t interested in seeing me, but I won’t go into that. I also had a huge argument with one of them last summer because she said I had no right to be depressed when others have it worse. I think that only sick people will get why that is such a bad thing to say to someone sick and depressed like me. So moving back will be weird, and I am bound to bump into people I use to know. I’ve already bumped into one person in the doctors surgery, safe to say we ignored each other.
I am then going on holiday to Florida where my parents own a house so we go there a lot. And I will get to see my Dad who I won’t have seen in over 3 months. Which will be nice. I will be going to Vans Warped Tour with my sister to see our favorite band, Bring Me The Horizon. Who we are both excited to see, though we are a little scared after seeing the videos of BMTH at Warped Tour and all the walls of death and mosh pits. However I’m sure it will be a really good day. Am also excited because To Write Love On Her Arms will be there, and I am a big supporter of them. One of the reasons I have been clean from self harm is because I want to be clean when I meet them. Me and my family are also then going to the Caribbean for 5 days. Which will be nice to go somewhere different a relax, well relax as much as is possible for me, because it’s quite hard for me.
However all this will be quite tough on my pain levels and I will have to take it easy most of the time and pace myself. But having my holiday to look forward to at the minute is a good thing.