Right now I’m in a huge flare up of pain. My head hurts so much that I can’t physically do anything other than lie in bed in pain and feeling miserable because I’m in pain and all I can do is lie in bed. I feel like there are knives in my head, the pain is so sharp and so severe. But there is nothing I can do to stop it, triptans don’t work, I’m not allowed anything stronger and I don’t have any methods that might help the pain because none of them help. So I’m stuck and I’m feeling really helpless. There’s no point going to the doctors cause they can’t do anything to help me, there’s nothing they can give me that I’m allowed that would help. I’m at a loss of what to do so I guess I just have to suffer it out which makes me angry and miserable. I just find it really inhumane that I have to suffer like this, you wouldn’t let a dog suffer like this so why let a human, doesn’t make any sense to me.
I know that it’s only going to get worse and I’m in for a rough few weeks. I’m going to Dubai on Friday, I’m already in flare up and when I’m in Dubai I usually get a big flare up as well (not sure what causes it yet though) so it’s going to be flare up upon flare up which isn’t going to be fun at all.
I’m just in so much unbelievable pain and I just can’t stand it anymore. But I don’t know what to do, cause no one can help me and I can’t help myself.