So before I had this blog I had tumblr, originally I had just one and it started off as me just posting picture I liked of bands and other stuff like that. But I then started following a lot of people with depression and who self harmed and posted depression sort of pictures and ones of self harming and stuff like that. As I got more depressed I used my tumblr to express that and became sort of like a depression and self harm blog. At one point I had over 1,000 followers. It was sort of an outlet for my emotions by posting them sort of pictures. I never posted pictures of myself self harming or my cuts, I draw the line at that but I reblogged hundreds of photos of self harm and depression pictures. I then created another tumblr linked to my main blog and on there I would just write, sort of like I do on here but smaller. I haven’t used them in like a year now, since I got this blog.
But tumblr is getting a lot of bad press about these sort of blogs at the minute, after a girl with a similar blog to mine committed suicide. I went back onto my tumblr for the first time in ages the other day and a thing popped up when I logged in about terms and conditions of tumblr. Usually I don’t even read those things I just click the accept button. But I clicked on one part of it to read it and it said something about depression and self harm blogs and how they will not be tolerated. I clicked accept anyway and went onto my blog. I was going to delete it but then I realised I only really wanted to delete my main blog and not the one I wrote a bunch of posts on just the picture one. But to delete the main one I had to delete both, so I just left it. But today I heard more about it on the news on the radio, saying that tumblr are in talks with UK politicians about the safety of these sort of blogs on Tumblr, with Tumblr saying it “draws lines” at harmful content like self-harm blogs. So I have now deleted my blog.
I’m not ashamed of my tumblr or what I posted, it was an outlet for me when I most needed it. And I know that most people would think that these sorts of blogs are bad and harmful, and maybe they are for some, but for others they are a lifeline, for me it certainly was. I never experienced anything bad about it, never compared my injuries to others and never experienced anyone egging me on to cut. It wasn’t like that for me, I’m sure there are people like that on there but I wasn’t part of it. Tumblr is effectively taking down all these depression and self harm blogs because they think they are harmful, but there are a lot of people on there and out there with these sort of blogs who desperately need them, it’s like an online community and for some to have that taken away from them would be even more harmful. The girl that committed suicide recently, days before her mum had found her tumblr and deleted it. This girl had thousands of followers on there she probably felt like she had just lost thousands of friends, the support network she had, the freedom to express herself and her lifeline.