So today I’m feeling somewhat empowered. The pain has died down a little, it’s not quite as bad as it was all of last week, so I’m thankful for that as last week was awful.
I keep saying the word ‘if’ in the terms ‘IF I get into college’ ‘IF I pass the course I can go to university’ when I really should be substituting ‘IF’ for ‘WHEN’. ‘WHEN I get into college’ ‘WHEN I pass the course I can go to university’.
I’m feeling somewhat empowered, that I will get into college and I will be able to cope because it’s something I really want to do. I want to go to college, I want to end up going to university, I want to make something of myself other than staying in bed and living off my parents. And I will do it, today I don’t care what it takes I’m going to do it and I’m going to pass with enough credits to get me into university.
I can do this, I can live despite pain. Yes I’m going to have bad days, that comes with the territory with chronic pain but I will do this!