It’s all getting very real the fact that I am going to college in September, and then after that year (providing I get in) I will be off to university. Five months ago I was horribly desperately depressed, suicidal and planning my attempt again, who knew that in the space of four months I could have completely turned my life around.
On Friday I went to the University of Winchester open day. I’ve already had to start thinking about where I want to go to for university, as soon after I get to college in September we start applying. I’ve decided I want to stay in the south of England in a place where I know and already feel comfortable in. Winchester is fairly close to where I’m from about 45 mins away, so I went to the open day to get a feel for the place and the course. Though from going to the open day I’ve decided I don’t really want to go there for several reasons, so I don’t think I will apply to go there.
I want to go to either Surrey or Southampton, both are high ranked on the list for psychology degrees. I’m from fairly close to Southampton so I know it well. And I have lots of family and family friends in Surrey and I love Guildford. I’m going to the Southampton open day in a few weeks time and then unfortunately I can’t make the Surrey open day this side of summer so I will be going to that one at the beginning of September. I’m not too sure where else to apply to though as I only really want to go to either Southampton or Surrey (preferably Surrey), but I need to have more options.
All this thinking about universities and going to open days has made this all very real. On Friday at the open day I was feeling very scared, I know most people feel scared about going to uni but for me, dealing with chronic pain and illness it’s even scarier. I will effectively be living on my own and my parents will be half way around the world in Dubai, which is fine but scary.