So I opened up my wordpress page today only to find a notification that today is my blogs 1 year anniversary. And what a year it has been, it’s been a difficult year to be honest but it’s started to get better. I started this blog a year ago as mainly an outlet for myself to write and on a side note maybe, hopefully help someone along the way by sharing my story. A year ago I had just moved back from Dubai and was horribly depressed and suicidal, most of this year has been difficult and I’ve spent the majority of it depressed and suicidal, up until March of this year where things started to get better.
Therapy is what has got me through this year, lots of it. It’s what has got me feeling a lot better emotionally despite the pain. So much so that now my thoughts are not dominated by the pain the whole time, apart from when it’s severe. Now I often find myself so distracted from the pain that I’m not even thinking about it all the time. Which is a good thing. Yes there are still bad days, bad pain days, but I find I’m able to cope with these better now. I’m able to cope with everything better now.
I’m excited for this next year, armed with my new positive attitude, the fact that I’m feeling more myself than I have in years, starting college in September and the prospect of university after that. For the first time in a long time I’m not fearing the future, I’m looking forward to it and what is to come.
I want to thank all my lovely followers for taking the time to read my posts, for your kind words and your support. I never thought people would actually want to read what I have to say. It is my hope that my writing will help someone one day, that sharing my story for the world to see will help someone. Writing helps me enormous amounts, I never thought I would love to write, but I do and I will continue to do so.