If you read my blog then you will know that I’ve been having a particularly difficult time recently with the pain and my depression. And then on Wednesday I had a horrible appointment with my neurologist which has just made me feel worse.
But anyway I really needed something good to happen to me for once, and for once it actually did. Yesterday I passed my driving test. I am over the moon to have passed and have my independence back and not have to rely on my mum all the time. I actually thought I had failed it, but at the end the tester said I had passed and I was so thrilled, he said I sounded surprised or relieved, I said I was both. Apparently I did really well, because I only got 3 minors and you can get up to 15 and still pass.
I really needed this to happen to prove that I could do it and I am not a failure, that I can achieve things. I needed some good news after the horrible time I’ve been having topped off with my awful appointment with my neurologist on Wednesday.
I know the high of passing won’t last that long, and I do still feel really miserable and depressed about being in pain and probably being in pain for the rest of my life. But I drove to college on my own this morning for the first time and it was great, I am so thrilled to have passed, and to finally have something good happen.