I needed some good news, and for once I got some!

If you read my blog then you will know that I’ve been having a particularly difficult time recently with the pain and my depression. And then on Wednesday I had a horrible appointment with my neurologist which has just made me feel worse.

But anyway I really needed something good to happen to me for once, and for once it actually did. Yesterday I passed my driving test. I am over the moon to have passed and have my independence back and not have to rely on my mum all the time. I actually thought I had failed it, but at the end the tester said I had passed and I was so thrilled, he said I sounded surprised or relieved, I said I was both. Apparently I did really well, because I only got 3 minors and you can get up to 15 and still pass.

I really needed this to happen to prove that I could do it and I am not a failure, that I can achieve things. I needed some good news after the horrible time I’ve been having topped off with my awful appointment with my neurologist on Wednesday.

I know the high of passing won’t last that long, and I do still feel really miserable and depressed about being in pain and probably being in pain for the rest of my life. But I drove to college on my own this morning for the first time and it was great, I am so thrilled to have passed, and to finally have something good happen.


14 thoughts on “I needed some good news, and for once I got some!

  1. Awesome job!!! I failed mine twice when I was in high school! Like flat-out got told to stop the car and get out so the instructor could safely drive us back to the testing center. *shakes head*
    Then, on the third try, I was determined, and I somehow got 100% that time. Flash forward almost a decade and I haven’t been able to drive for over a year, but I need to get back into it no matter the meds I’m on and the fact that I can’t turn my neck to check my blind spot and I have to pull over all the time because of muscle spasms and/or loss of control of a limb…. Just gotta do it.
    Your freedom is important!!!! It might seem like the high of passing the test is gone in a week or so from now, but then the high of independence will not go away for a long, long time! 🙂
    Driving was one of my favorite things, so I’m not just letting these illnesses take it from me anymore. Especially after reading this post, I can do this. I can start driving again.
    Thank you for sharing both your highs and your lows. Your honesty is a beautiful thing, and has the power to change many lives. ❤

    • Oh dear that’s not good. But yeah driving is great, I could drive in Dubai where I use to live but my licence wasn’t transferable and was automatic not manual so I had to re learn in England and take the test. So I use to have my independence when I lived in Dubai and then lost it when I moved back to England so it’s great to have it back!
      Good for you, I hope you manage to get back into it and you are right, you can do it!
      Thank you, I’m glad you enjoy reading my posts! 🙂 ❤

  2. Congrats! Passing my driving test seemed impossible with the headaches and migraines I experience too, but it happened! I know exactly how you feel, it’s a huge accomplishment. A bigger accomplishment because of what we go through. So happy for you!

  3. Congratulations!! You are not a failure! You live in pain, you are a warrior!
    However, this is wonderful!
    You can do this, you can do so much! I can’t drive. Look at you!!!

    Try to take a moment every day to think of something to be grateful for. I know it is hard, but try hard. sometimes it might be the same thing every day for a while. Even if it is clean water to drink. A clean bed. You could take a shower today. the more you think of things to be grateful for, the less you will feel the burden of the bad. It equals out in the ole’ brain of ours. just try and see if it helps.

    thinking of you with healing thoughts and happiness.

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