It’s been over a week since I last posted, I needed some time to figure out what was going on. Cefaly was initially helping, but that didn’t last long at all. Less than a week actually before my Cefaly’s effectiveness seemed to ware off. Been using it just as much, but now when the program has finished my pain levels aren’t any better and a couple of times this week they have even been worse than before I started the program. I know plenty of people it has helped, but unfortunately it looks like I’m not one of them, though they are mostly chronic migraine rather than NDPH sufferers.
Disappointed would be an understatement to be honest, and I’m angry at myself. Angry because I let myself hope, initially I had no expectations about Cefaly, well actually I was pretty convinced it wasn’t going to help. But then it seemed to start helping and I let myself hope that maybe this was the answer to everything, that this was my magical miracle treatment and things would only get better. However it turns out that this wasn’t the magical miracle treatment for me, and I’m just left with the terrible disappointment that I swore to myself ages ago I would never inflict on myself ever again. I’m angry at myself for letting myself hope, for allowing myself to get disappointed again by trying another treatment. I honestly don’t know why I bother, no treatment ever helps and after I am just left disappointed and trying to hold myself together in the deep dark pit that is the disappointment of yet another failed treatment. I dug myself this hole by trying this treatment, but I don’t know how I’m going to get myself back out of it.