I have a tendency to head towards the darkness, to see the negative side of everything. I get to a good place and the slightest little thing will send me spiraling down into the darkness again, and once I have started heading that way I have difficulty trying to escape. I don’t know why I am this way but sometimes the darkness is easier, sometimes it’s comfortable, sometimes it’s just easier to hide here than to put myself out there where I feel that I will only get knocked back down again anyway.

I want so badly to be strong, to conquer the darkness for good, to be a success story, an inspiration, someone who can be looked up to. But at the minute I’m not that person, I see myself as weak, as a failure, I let depression get the best of me and I don’t know how to stop this from happening, to stop the darkness from taking over, again and again. I struggle to write a blog post now because I feel like I have let everyone down because I let the darkness get the best of me.


2 thoughts on “Darkness.

  1. Don’t forget that your family, friends and even strangers like me are pulling for you always. Disappointing others should be the least of your worries. Be strong for yourself!!!

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