6 years…

January is a difficult month for me to say the least. Yesterday was my headaches 6 year anniversary.Every year that goes by doesn’t get any easier and this year was no different. 6 years is a long time for anything let alone to have been in constant pain for, which takes it’s toll.
I’ve had a month off the job/apprenticeship I recently started. A combination of being really badly normal people sick and the pain flaring. So it hasn’t exactly been the greatest month anyway let alone to add in that I find January particularly difficult anyway, because of the anniversary.
I wish I was strong enough to celebrate my 6 year anniversary as surviving 6 years of chronic pain and everything that has brought, but I honestly don’t feel like celebrating my worst enemy, the thing that has caused me so much pain, misery and heartache.
So yesterday I was sad for everything I have lost, all the problems the pain has caused and all my dreams the pain has ruined. I’d like to say today I have cheered up, but it’s been just has hard.

So happy or should I say unhappy 6 year anniversary headache.