Exercise is my escape, escape from my thoughts and the pain in my head. I know a lot of people with chronic pain and illness are unable to exercise but for me it’s one of the things that keeps me going.
My main source of exercise is Tae Kwon-Do, I’m a 2nd Dan black belt and qualified instructor, when I’m training or helping out in our club teaching it’s the best relief I get from the pain, it’s still there but I’m so distracted by what I’m doing that the pain isn’t at the front of my mind. I also don’t really have to concentrate to do Tae Kwon-Do, I’ve been doing it for 15 years it’s now so natural that it just automatically flows out of me so I don’t even really need to think or concentrate on what I’m doing. It’s a complete escape and the best and only relief I get. However afterwards my pain is often worse but I usually train in the evenings so mostly I go to bed shortly after getting home. Although often it is worse afterwards, it doesn’t put me off training because of how free I feel whilst I’m doing it, so the worse pain after is worth it for some partial relief. I do also go to the gym which also helps, not quite as good as Tae Kwon-Do but works on a similar principle.
Tae Kwon-Do also saved my life, it gave me a focus and it helped prevent me from self-harming as there was no way I could do both. Tae Kwon-Do means a lot to me and so do the lovely people I train with. When I enter the Dojang (training hall) I cast aside how depressed I’m feeling and I immerse myself into Tae Kwon-Do, it’s almost like a type of therapy for me. When I train it’s the one time of the day I feel happy and free, TKD is a main thing that keeps me going and gets me through the day.
I have a 10 year goal, I want to be a 5th Dan Master by the time I’m 33, that is the quickest time frame possible to do it in and there is 3 more gradings to go to get there with a waiting/training period that increases with each grading. I have to take every grading on time and pass first time to reach my goal and I will reach it, I will not let myself fail. I work hard when I train to be the best I can possibly be, teaching also helps me improve and the gym helps me gain more strength and endurance in order to improve my technique.
I know now for most people with chronic pain or illness exercising is near impossible, and I know I am lucky in that I am able to. And don’t get me wrong there are time when exercising is impossible for me too, if the pain is already really really bad there is no way I can go to Tae Kwon-Do or the gym. But when I am able to, boy does it help me feel better. Without Tae Kwon-Do I would be even more depressed than I already am, TKD keeps me going and keeps me sane.
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