Stimulator re-turn on day.

I’ve been a bit lax with my posts lately and I’ve been meaning to write this post since last week, but it’s been bit crazy.

Last Thursday it was my 23rd birthday, I had a nice day with my family and a meal out in the evening with them and some family friends. Overall the day was quite good and I didn’t feel too miserable despite often feeling a bit disheartened every year I get older and I’m no better if not worse health wise.

On Friday I had my reprogramming appointment at the hospital in London to turn my stimulator on and onto the burst settings. I had a bit of a tube dilemma getting there and ended up having to run from the tube station to the hospital, only to get there to find that the rep from the stimulation company had been told to come at 11am instead of 10am like me and my nurse thought. It was okay though as I caught up with my nurse and told her my normal headache had gone back to baseline which is still bad but not as bad has it was when the stimulator was on however I still had the extra headache at the back of my head. She said that she would talk to my neurologist in the week and discuss what to do and let me know as she said that if I still had the second headache despite the stimulator being off then there is another problem going on, but she couldn’t comment on what that could b, understandably. We then had a bit of a laugh and a joke about things whilst we were waiting for the rep and I was filing in some headache diaries. She then asked if I had been charging my stimulator this past month and I hadn’t been because I presumed that because it was off I wouldn’t have to, apparently that’s not the case but nobody told me. Anyway it had enough juice ton do the reprogramming thankfully otherwise the whole trip to London would have been a waste of everyones time. The rep turned up and it took all of 5 minutes to turn it on and program it, this burst setting means I’m not meant to feel the stimulation at all and if I do I just turn it down but otherwise I don’t need to do anything.
I then headed for a quick lunch with Jacqui who ran the Rock Bottom event that I wrote about it my last post, which was really nice. And then headed home because I knew I desperately needed to charge my stimulator battery. By the time I got home my pain levels were quite high but I hoped it was because I had had a busy and stressful day going to London.

On Saturday I wen back up to London via my Grandparents house in Surrey with my Mum and sister as last year my sister bought me tickets to see the Harry Potter and the Cursed Child West End show for my birthday; it books a year in advance so the tickets were for this year. Anyway the show was absolutely fantastic, the best show I have ever seen, great storyline, great special effects and costumes, just utterly spell-binding. We stayed in London over night and then my sister flew back up north in the morning and me and my mum went to have lunch with my grandparents for mothers day. Me and mum then spent the afternoon and night at my mums best friends with her family and had a really lovely time with them. My pain levels throughout all this were still not good, however I still was thinking that it was probably due to having a busy few days. On Monday my Mum flew to Dubai to spend 3 weeks with my Dad and I drove back home.

I decided to ensure that I had a quiet few days this week to try and see if my pain eases and rule out the possibility that it’s actually worse because my stimulator has been turned back on. Unfortunately it’s still quite bad and I’m not feeling too optimistic. My nurse called me yesterday after speaking to my neurologist and he has said he wants to move my next appointment which was mid June forward to the 25th April instead. I’m pleased and thankful he is going to see me soon but I’m worried and concerned that it’s not going to be good news about my extra headache. I haven’t told them that my normal headache is worse again since the turn on of the stimulator as I don’t want to be too presumptuous about it. But I’ve said to myself I will give it till my appointment on the 25th and if it is still bad and has not improved I will be asking for it to be turned off and will be asking about removal of it.

To be honest I’m starting to feel more and more upset about the fact that I really don’t think this surgery is going to be a success and so far it’s just been a complete nightmare. I fought so hard to be able to get this surgery for me and everyone else on the list at the hospital. I know in my heart that despite now regretting having the surgery, I know that if I hadn’t have had it I would have always been wondering if this was my answer. But unfortunately I don’t think it is and I feel completely heartbroken about it. It’s left me worse than before I had it and I was not prepared for this. I struggle to find the words to explain fully about how disappointed and heartbroken I feel right now and I haven’t really told anyone about how I’m feeling about any of this. I’m also very very good at pretending I’m okay and not talking about how I actually feel so nobody is none the wiser.

Anyway keep you updated on the stimulator issues.

Wishing you a low pain day!

 

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2 thoughts on “Stimulator re-turn on day.

  1. Don’t give up on it! I know mine in different from yours because I have 4 leads but maybe it will help some and then it’s worth it. It took me 4-5 months to get programming right and in the first 2 years I met with my Rep a lot. In the last year and a half I’ve only seen her a couple of times. Here I am at over 3 1/2 years and I need an adjustment again. No problem because my Rep has been great and always willing to meet with me when I want. Also, I have found out that Lyme Disease is the cause of my migraines and coffee enemas have been helping lowering the frequency of them. I was told to do coffee enemas for other reasons and was thrillled it helped with my daily migraine of 21 years. Good luck!

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