It’s the never ending headache’s 4 year anniversary!

I got a notification today telling me it’s my blogs 4 year anniversary. It’s crazy to think that it’s been 4 year since I started writing on here. I’d been writing similar for a couple of years before but on Tumblr under the same sort of url, but closed it down and started out on here properly.

My reason for starting writing was to help me cope with the challenges of living with this headache, to give me an outlet because I’m not very capable of voicing my feelings to anyone. I needed a safe place where I felt able to express how this condition makes me feel somewhere other than the once a week session in a psychologists office. It has always and still does make me feel so much lighter once I have written down and shared how I feel; it’s very therapeutic! I’d really recommend blogging/writing to everyone, especially if like me you tend to bottle things up and have difficulty expressing and sharing your emotions with people.
My blog has always remained very private to me, as in I don’t tell people who I know in real life and see all the time about it. Most of my friends and family don’t know it exists and the couple that do respect my privacy enough and how I feel about not wanting to share it with them. I just simply wouldn’t feel comfortable being as honest if I knew family and friends were reading and knew everything I write on here.

I know this blog isn’t often too positive or hopeful and in some ways I’m sorry about that, I wish I could be more of that for you all. But I’m not going to lie and tell you that living with this condition isn’t hard or it’s easy just to get on with it, suck it up and continue with your life as if you didn’t have a headache. Because that’s not possible for me and not for a lot of people with NDPH, that being said a lot of people do work and study. Most of us just try to get on the best we can, whatever that may look like or our situation may be. I pride myself of this being a personal honest account of how this condition affects my life, the problems it causes and how it makes me feel. And I hope that is okay.

When I started this I never thought that many people would be interested in reading about my life and the issues I have faced and still currently face with my headache, turns out that quite a lot of people do. To those of you that read my blog and have ndph or a different headache/migraine condition, I hope that somehow knowing that you’re not alone in this or how this may make you feel is of some small comfort.
To everyone those that always comment and are rooting for me, thank you means a lot!
And finally to all the lovely people who have emailed me since I put a contact email on here. It’s been really nice chatting to each of you, I hope that sharing experiences, helping each other feel slightly less alone, and chatting about random stuff in our lives as a distraction helps you guys as much as it helps me.
If you haven’t emailed me but would like to talk to someone who gets it, share experiences etc, feel free to send me an email as I’d love to hear from you.

Thanks for all the support over the past 4 years, I’ll keep writing 🙂



21st Birthday!

Today is my 21st birthday! Usually I tend to get a bit down on and around my birthday, however today has been an exception, so far I’ve had a lovely day and have a really nice evening planned as well. I have been thoroughly spoiled by my lovely family with lots of really nice presents, my parents bought me two pairs of heels and a leather jacket from my favourite shop and my sister bought me a gorgeous dress and my grandparents have all spoiled me as well. I am truly lucky to have such an amazing family!
This morning I even had a surprise delivery of flowers and a balloon from my old school counsellor/now close friend, which made me cry tears of happiness; never been sent flowers before and they came from the best person ever.
I had a quiet morning and then me and my mum went into town for a coffee and a bit of lunch. This evening I’m off to this really nice restaurant with my mum and some family friends which I’m really looking forward to and am going to wear my new dress and heels! So far it’s been a really lovely day, I’ve had lots of nice messages from people as well.

This birthday so far has been the exception to the rule of me feeling rubbish on my birthday, yes I’m in pain but despite the pain I’ve had a really lovely day and have a lovely evening planned also and I feel positive and happy right now.

I’ve been through so much, this is my 6th birthday spent in pain, but this year that’s okay because I know I can cope that I can be happy and I can achieve things and I am accepting of the pain. I’ve come so far since my last birthday, and not to mention the 4 years prior to that, it’s an ongoing process and there are still many bumps in the road but I feel okay!

Happy birthday to me 🙂